OFFICE OFFICE :( !!!

I am one of those people who deride office... And I believe that my office problem is that of many's... After all, I am among the "MANGO PEOPLE"....--> "AAM JANTA"

Yet to complete

Saga Starts here!!!

This is my tryst with blogging... As usual, I am searching the perfect start which I know will evade me forever...

For the starters!! This article to me and how I have made my life...

Lately, I have been judging myself trying to discover me and categorise myself.I just want to find out my perfect answer to "Describe yourself?" And lo!! it is a hard and cruel answer that I found out... The answer is "hard" because of the complex me and "cruel" because of 2 particular reasons

1. You find out the you are complete "LOSER" and "SADDIST".
2. Secondly, You are neither the first person to be tagged like this nor the only one. You are one of the million people all with crooked up lives.

SAD SIDE!!

I am a guy blessed into the middle class family of Orissa,India. Fair but not so tall. My family actually gave me very good school education through real hardships. I am pissed off that I could not make fair use of my schooling. I did used to get good laurels in Intra-School activies but not in Inter-School events. So, basically I am a winner among small groups and loser in a crowd.

I lost my dad at an early age and still then mom assured me good rather best education. But, me best at my downfall side, never made best use of the oppurtunity.And boy!!I am so heart broken for it. Though my peers made it to IIT,IIMs, 7 figured robust salary, I went on to become a normal average guy...who has seen real big dreams and more importantly has shared the loo with people who acheived it, and thrashed a lot of expectations of mom and family.

Me and mom aren't open in every way and a little bit of generation gap is there. We do have different opinions but I respect and will always thank her for all that she's done to us.

I tend to think a lot. And depressed about a lot of things.

BRIGHT SIDE'

I do believe that there is a bright side in me... Correct me if I am mistaking this with the "ULTIMATE HUMAN NATURE OF OPTIMISTIC HOPE". I think I just reassure myself "ALL IS WELL,SOMETHING GOOD WILL HAPPEN!! The best one!! Whatever happens is for the good!!! Can you beleive that??

Anyways I have always taken care of my kid sister and tried to guide her. I am seeing that whatever I have missed, she does it.

I always try to perfectise things.

So many thoughts are flooding my mind and I will update slowly each one of them...